...I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing to want and desire. At the very least, it seems much like your own wants, instead of Numeris Genitor's all-encompassing ambitions.
...and I would hope it doesn't come to that but you have my word if you begin acting... aberrant I'll be one of the first to do what I can.
Re: [C]
...and I would hope it doesn't come to that but you have my word if you begin acting... aberrant I'll be one of the first to do what I can.